Monday, May 30, 2011

My Sweet Birthday Wish

"You were God's surprise to us, you are a special gift from above". My Mom always tells me this whenever I question her about why I was born to be like this. I was an unplanned pregnancy. My parents are happy with two children when my mom accidentally got pregnant to me. She never thought she will still have another child but I came, and she was happy that I did.

I am the bully's favorite. Always the subject of ridicule because I was so fat and ugly. And until now I still bring with me the trauma it had caused, but ofcourse I'm trying my best not to. I always want to bring happiness and positivity to everyone and it all started out when I did not pursue my attempt to jump off the hospital window 12 years ago.

Much like how it looked like from the hospital window when I looked down...
At that moment, when I was told I won't live for long because of the complications that Diabetes has caused. I thought to myself, why not end it now? So that I won't have to go through the turmoil of living everyday knowing I'll die soon. So I went up the top floor of the hospital, opened the window and stand in front of it. As I was looking down at the busy street and when I was about to put my right foot forward, a great force stopped me. I instantly pulled my foot back and went down, closed the window and cried. What was I thinking? I don't have the right to take away my own life. Only God can take away what He has given.

Since then I live my everyday as if it was my last. But to my surprise, and even the Doctors cannot even believe it, my two years maximum life expectancy was extended, and my condition has become favorable.

Running for L-O-V-E! ^_^
Running has made a huge impact to my health. I became healthier and happier. Not only I became fitter, I even met great people and great friends along the way.

And now that my big day has come, I would like to take this opportunity to extend my gratitude to all who has been a huge part of my life. My family for being supportive of me all my life, my elementary, high school and college friends, my friends from my previous work, my teachers who became my good friends, to all the running groups: Team Boring, HOB, Team CB, ChiChem Runners, Team Alpha 1, Team Ungas, Power Puff Boys, Snail Runners Alabang, All the adiNation of Runners Team: Alabang, MOA, Ortigas-Tiendesitas, UP Diliman, Ayala Tri and most especially to my aNR BHS Family (The Storm Chasers) , my Team PDA (Philippine Diabetic Athletes) Family, My TKR Family (Team Kamote Runners), my Chummy Group Family, my runner friends who are close to me: Dennis, Gerald, Shiela, Ate Ceres, Ate Kristel, Kuya Percy, Jixee, Kuya KB, JR, Ate Iris, Soi, Mark, Ate Merlyn, Angela, Kate, Michael, Erald, Sam, Kuye Merl, Kuya Fred, Papa Racs, Ate Amor, Ate Elsa, Ate Peachy, Cheryl etc. and ofcourse, those people who are so special to me: Mam Lot, Marie, Ate Lori, Kuya Bee, Mommy Eve, Ate Che Anne, Francis of Eat Pray Run, Ate Vimz a.k.a. Kulit Runner, Sir Poch and Kuya Daves a.k.a. Barefoot Daves... You don't know how thankful I am that in this lifetime, I get the chance to know you. Thank you for being a part of my sweet life!

The aNR BHS Storm Chasers! I love these guys! ^_^
To the running community who has been so loving and supportive, I owe you so much. I won't be where I am right now if it weren't for your motivation and belief that I can do this. Being a runner is far off what I've thought I would be. To those people who are followers of my blog, thank you so much for taking time in reading my posts. I hope in a way I inspire you and touched you. It's definitely written from my heart.

And in every birthdays, before the celebrant blows the cake, he or she got to make a wish first...

Hmm... What's a good birthday wish?
My wish? None. I am so thankful to God for the sweet life I have I could not ask for anything more, and if this will be my last birthday, I will still be thankful to him for making me experience this wonderful world for a longer time.

My Birthday Prayer

"Father, I thank you for giving me another year to live. Another year of wonderful memories to treasure and remember. I am so blessed for this life I am living. I may not have all the things that my heart desires but I can't afford to wish for more. I know what I have right now is already too much for what I have asked for.

Please forgive me when there were times that I question your love for me. For those times I feel that I was alone, and everything is going against me. It was so foolish of me to think that you left me in my fight. My mind is not meant to understand the deeper meaning of your wisdom. From this day on, I promise that I will always trust in you.


Thank you for all the trials and pains that you let me experience, for these things made me a stronger person.
Thank you for my flaws and for my unattractive appearance, for this is a constant reminder that I should remain humble. 
Thank you for an impoverished life, for this has taught me to conserve and be resourceful of what I have and most of all,
Thank you for the disease that I'll carry for the rest of my life, for this made me appreciate the simple things in life and the value of living it to the fullest.

Father, thank you for the past 12 years that you have never left my side. I am so happy that I get to have a longer life unexpectedly. And if the time comes that you will take this life of mine, I hope that it's the time that I have already touched other people's lives and made them believe that you exist, you care, and you are God. It's my greatest dream and I am always looking forward to being with you soon...

For everything, I thank you!

I'm giving back to you all the glory and honor, in Jesus name, AMEN..."

Happy Birthday Sweet Life Runner!

Good Vibes everyone and Sweet Running! ^_^

7 comments:

Daves said...

happy na! birthday pa! happy birthday ulit ^___^

ann said...

happy birthday!!!
i had a meeting with francis and glenn of eat pray run last friday. thanks for featuring them here in your blog. you're also enabling people like them to advance a noble cause. it's contagious - the good kind.
i was also a sufferer like you. it's the attitude that's helping me stay afloat. you're on the right track. keep the faith. =)

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fitfastandstrong said...

Happy Birthday! Keep running and be happy always :)

The Sweet Life Runner said...

Thanks Kuya Daves! You are one of the biggest blessings I have received and will keep for the rest of my life...

Hi Ann! I have read your blog and I must say you are a strong person to surpass those trials. Keep it up! Thanks so much!

Thanks so much uhooi!

Hey idol FFS! Thanks so much for the greetings. Hoping the same for you and for Team Alpha 1! God bless! ^_^

PeƱaRUNzi said...

Happy birthday! May you run more miles with less injuries. Enjoy every footstrike! :)

The Sweet Life Runner said...

Thanks so much PeƱaRUNzi! See you on the road. Sweet Running! ^_^